Mindfulness

Today is my writing day, and I'm feeling some trepidation over writing.  With all the traveling I've been doing, and the fact that it's summer, I haven't been able to find a writing schedule that sticks.

A couple of weeks ago, I decided to get some writing days in before vacation.  Then I wouldn't feel like a schlub, and I'd be that much closer to finishing the book.  With a deep breath, I wrote.  My chief concern was staving off the wonky, and I worked toward not letting the wonky in.  One of the things I did was have Chris draw out a card from the gorgeous Grace cards by Cheryl Richardson.  On the front of the card he chose, it said "Mindfulness."  On the back, it said, "Manage your mind.  When we direct our thoughts and words toward the outcome we most desire, we ignite grace."  Seemed like a good card; I'm always up for being mindful.

Six hours later, I realized that all that I had written that day was gone.  The document was two weeks old, and didn't show an update from earlier that day.  It was gone.

To this day, I have no idea what happened.  It's not as if hitting save isn't an everyday thing I do.  No clue.

The next day, I decide I'm going to try again.  My "j" key on my keyboard wouldn't work.  No joke.  Granted, it had been loose off an on for a couple of weeks, but I was always able to press it back in.  That day, no matter what I did, it wouldn't press down.  I decided the Universe didn't want me writing, so I listened.  (Note:  Chris came home and fixed the "j" in under 30 seconds.)

It's been a couple of weeks, and I'm getting ready to write.  I decide to start out by refreshing my Grace card.  "Mindfulness" has been displayed long enough, and I'm thinking it's time for a new one.  I shuffle the deck, fan them out, and then pick the edge of the card that calls to me.  I pull out the card, and guess which one it is?

Mindfulness.

I can create the outcome I want.  I can create the experience I want.  Writing today will be easy.  I'll also be gentle with myself and ever mindful.

Comments

[Meryl Evans]

I had this happen to me! I wrote about half of an article and saved it (or so I thought) and it was gone. Nowheresville. Sock heaven, maybe? I even looked in the temp files. Very weird...

Bad J. Behave J!

[Dawn Goldberg]

And dontcha know that there have been NO problems since? And Chris even ordered me a new "j." Weird stuff!