Last week I participated in an on-line writers' conference. It had all the earmarks of a great thing: it was free (yeah, yeah - I know the old adage about you get what you pay for), it was a conference all about writing, and there were several workshops that were right in line with what I wanted.
It started last Monday, the 8th, and lasted until Sunday, the 14th.
I, on the other hand, lasted two days.
I signed up for several workshops and real-time chats. The workshops took place on a forum, and the real-time chats were just what they sound like, chats in a chat room. The workshops could be done at any time, although the four I had signed up for had daily homework. The chats had specific date and times.
I started out on Monday attending two events, and I was a little disappointed. Now, I knew that they were in a chat format, so there would be no voice-to-voice conversation. What I didn't realize was how little value they held for me. Let me give you an example:
Presenter: Hi, how are you all? I can only type two lines at a time, so I won't really be presenting much information. This is really a Q&A. So, type a question mark by your name and I'll get to you in order.
JaneDoe: ?
JimSmith:?
BobSmall: ?
Presenter: Now, when you write, you really just sit down and put your pen to paper and visualize. The more you visualize, the better.
SallyJones: ?
KateBig: ?
Presenter: Let's go with Jane Doe's question. Jane?
JaneDoe: How do you actually write?
Presenter: Well, it's a little like eating an elephant. You take one bite at a time. JimSmith? Your turn.
Now, that's not an actual transcript from the chat, but it's not too far off. In other words, not enough time or space to really give in-depth information. And since it's only chat and not voice, we couldn't really interact. It was too much for me to follow, even being a very visual person. I was trying to follow several trains of thought, with the presenter answering a question in two-lines spurts, and the questioner trying to go deeper. I just couldn't wrap my brain around it.
Then, I participated in the on-line workshops in the forums. That was a really valuable experience, but I found myself getting very overwhelmed. The idea is that you complete the exercise and post it. Then, you read other people's submissions and comment. And then people comment on yours. And it keeps going.
I couldn't handle it, and I quit after two days.
I was so overwhelmed that I just shut down. Stacy explained to me that it was the medium. It was a medium that didn't work for me, at least not in a learning environment. I don't do chat rooms, and so I wasn't used to the quickness and the shallowness (meaning the inability to go really deep into something) that I found there.
I did gain a bit of useful information, and the exercises I did participate in were very valuable. Maybe I could do ONE on-line workshop, but I still feel the constant checking in, reading, commenting... it would just be too much.
I'm looking forward to attending an in-person workshop/conference, but even there I'll have to be careful that I don't try to do much.
I'm proud of myself for recognizing (even if at first I didn't understand why) that this wasn't working for me and that it was causing me to shut down in the rest of my life. I bowed out, and I didn't feel guilty at all. Notice how when I'm feeling overwhelmed, I dive for the comfort of my books? You can always tell when I'm feeling overwhelmed; I have a ton of "What Dawn Is Reading Today" posts in fairly short order.
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